I am so confused right now.

I finally got some money so I went down the road and bought some vodka yesterday to try and dull the pain, which in hindsight was a bad idea because half a litre is painful.

But anyway, I went down to get this vodka and as I'm standing at the cash point i'm surrounded by a good few chavs, couple boys, couple girls. I check my balance, get out some money and i can feel this horrible sensation on the back of my legs. Low and behold, some douchebag chav has been pissing on the floor right behind my feet and it's fucking splashed all up the back of my legs and all over my shoes. Fucking ace.

I just told my mum this, and she's like "you should've had some witty response" but to be honest, the examples she was giving weren't very witty at all. More like things that will result in me getting punched in the face. She then began yelling at me, telling me that I shouldn't be afraid to leave the house because I'm worried somebody's going to punch me.

I left the goddamn house to get the vodka which is the whole point behind the story anyway. I'm so confused but she got the wrong end of the stick, i was only telling her that the people here are disgusting and she launches into this tirade about me thinking everyone's going to beat me up and that I'm not different enough to get beaten up for being different, which is ridiculous with the story of Sophie Lancaster being all over the news recently. But it's been like this for years.

There's always this constant avoidance to real violence in situations where you're outnumbered, in a dark place where nobody is likely to help because they think you're kids just messing around. If I'd started on that little shit, I probably would've been smacked by his whore of a girlfriend who was climbing all over him outside in public, and her fat friend. Then I probably would have hit back, and then it would've kicked off. There would've been a bottling, a battering, and I would have been very outnumbered, and yet my mother would rather I'd started?

Yeah, just what this world needs Mum. Another alternative kid being battered by chavs just for being an alternative kid.