I feel very sick in a "constant butterflies" kinda way. And it's like they're stuck in my chest cavity as well as my stomach. I can't decide whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, but it's definitely a thing and it's definitely making me nervous. I am so excited for T&S next Monday but I'm petrified too, I don't want to be an ass or say anything stupid, or look like a tard, or anything shit. I just am entirely shit and retarded and grrrrr.

Grow up!

Me I mean. I should grow up and stop it, this is making me act different. Stupid and like I did when I was back at school. Hate hate hate.