So a couple of days ago I came to the realisation that I don't really like the Girl, and I've been trying to figure out what would switch that off so suddenly. It kinda hit me while I was in the shower today, so bear with me as I try and make sense of it in words.

I couldn't ever figure out why I liked her in the first place, because she's totally not my type at all. She's practically the opposite. So I was confused from the word go, but I just went with it. I never ever thought I'd get a chance with her, and then after months of repressing it, and trying to get over it she tells me that she likes me. We go, we make out, and a week after that, I realise that I totally don't like her at all. I think I had a fascination with her, a slight obsession because she was the unattainable, the one that I could never get and that's why I wanted her. I wanted her because I couldn't have her. Then I had her and realised that I didn't want her any more. She no longer had that mysterious edge, she was no longer the girl I'd never get. That destroyed it.

There is something very fucked up with me.

Problem is, I dunno if I want to break this to her at all, or if I'm just gonna ignore her, or just go on as I was.

I've got a very bad feeling I am going to do this the asshole way, which is really not good and not what I want to do, but apparently I don't act like myself around her.